Okay, so the keeping it casual thing scares everyone. EVERYONE. It's a bad sign, a red flag, a big flashing light with a siren.
But you know what? He's really cool, and he's sweet and all, but at this point in my life I just don't want a real relationship. I want a fake one, just the front of it without having to truly invest (and thereby risk) my whole true self. I'm sort of using him to make me feel good during a time when that's not easy.
And I have...um...needs. And...well...if nothing else I feel like having sex with someone other than Jon was a big step that I needed to take, so it's good.
I'm plenty busy doing other stuff; it's the thinking part that's got me hung up.
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