I had some epiphanies over my super long 4th of July weekend. I spent most of it alone and all of it thinking thinking thinking... Here's the latest from my brain:-I never dealt with the loss and frustration I feel from Hurricane Katrina. I need to do that before I start trying to be an emotional badass again. I am not an emotional badass. I thought I was, but I am most certainly not. As evident in ten posts. But hey, that's why I have a diary...so I can learn this stuff.
-I am afraid of succeeding because I feel like I don't deserve it or something. And that's just not true! I do deserve it! I am humbled by the precociousness of this girl. She's awesome for having figured out some of that stuff at twenty! When I read it I kinda felt like I was watching kids teaching other kids how to be grownups, but It's much better to just let go of that kind of judgement and just appreciate the wisdom.
-It is good sometimes to just go where the wind blows. And right now the wind is keeping me on track for a production office job. Did I mention I got offered another job today? I DID!!! IT'S AN AWESOME JOB!!! Goes till January...working with (mostly) the same great team... including Payroll! And maybe even the Art Shrew! YAY!
-I have social stamina that rivals everyone I know, it seems. Everyone else keeps talking about how they just want to chill out, not work, spend time at home... The hell with that, I say! Let us hang out, good friends! At the very least I demand take out and a bottle of wine!
-Speaking of my social stamina, I MUST start going to events that revolve around things that interest me. Comics and art shows and technology-y things. In New Orleans everyone's too laissez-faire to even have events, so this is all new to me... But it's what people DO here...and it's a bit different from the slapped-together-at-the-last-minute raucus parties that constitute New Orleanian social events. And it's my new social strategery to avoid flirting games gone awry at wrap parties and to expand my network a little bit.
So! The Adventures continue:
Quest #1: Deal with Katrina (oh boy).
Quest #2: Go with the flow at work; do what I'm good at.
Quest #3: Be the girl that gets promoted on her next job.
Quest #4: Get my function on and cut back on the drinking.
Quest #5: Snuggle with the adorable little Katrina kitty that's trying to climb into my lap. At least SOMETHING good came out of that damn storm.
2 comments:
All good Quests - good luck!!! :)
Sounds like a plan to me :-)
Hey, do you want a visitor? I'm off the last week of July with nothing to do, and flights to NYC aren't actually too bad right now (especially considering fuel prices). An author I like is going to be in town that week. Let me know... carolyn dot dubiel at gmail dot com :-)
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