I can only come up with a few things to write about. They aren't necessarily congruous.
* I want to live, I just have trouble seeing why I should keep doing it.
* The kind of thing I'm looking for is out there; it's just not looking for me.
* My greatest fear is loneliness and yet I keep isolating myself from others.
* I am like a shadow walking among people. Like a ghost they can see.
The funny thing is that I'm not depressed right now. In fact, if you put me to work I feel like I'm in the middle of a manic phase. It's just that I'm having trouble getting work...I don't know if that's hurting or helping, since I feel so very tired too. It's like winter has set in inside of me and my body is responding to some cosmic message from the magnetosphere that is telling me to hibernate. I'm having trouble running, I'm having trouble eating, I'm having trouble doing anything at all. It's not because of depression either, it's just that I'm tired. So so tired.
Maybe I should take a nap.
* I want to live, I just have trouble seeing why I should keep doing it.
* The kind of thing I'm looking for is out there; it's just not looking for me.
* My greatest fear is loneliness and yet I keep isolating myself from others.
* I am like a shadow walking among people. Like a ghost they can see.
The funny thing is that I'm not depressed right now. In fact, if you put me to work I feel like I'm in the middle of a manic phase. It's just that I'm having trouble getting work...I don't know if that's hurting or helping, since I feel so very tired too. It's like winter has set in inside of me and my body is responding to some cosmic message from the magnetosphere that is telling me to hibernate. I'm having trouble running, I'm having trouble eating, I'm having trouble doing anything at all. It's not because of depression either, it's just that I'm tired. So so tired.
Maybe I should take a nap.
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